With summer looming ahead, anxieties start to build up: w
hat are we doing this summer? Then I came up with this amazing idea: we should find a beach rental somewhere with a pool, near a beach and camp out there for the rest of the summer. Brian can then commute back and forth for work as needed. Since not much is opened here, we might as well go enjoy it elsewhere. I was sort of half joking but half serious. But then the idea took hold and I was fixated that
this is the solution to all of our problems. We will be happy for the rest of the summer if this happens.
But then I was reminded of:
Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. Habakkuk 3:17-18
Am I simply trying to find my joy and happiness elsewhere again? Changing circumstances do not bring joy. Maybe temporary I suppose. But joy has to come from God and God alone. I'm reminded of Cornerstone Church sermon when the speaker said, "Everything in life can be lost. Except God. He is the only thing we cannot lose." And that is where our Ultimate Hope and Joy come from! Forgive me Lord. How did I forget this already from two months ago?! My mind is so prone to wander...