New Love

Last week, these came in the mail:

  

This week, these got delivered:

And last but not least, my new favorite home/decorating store:

On Being a Mamma

I FINALLY experienced it: the love and true joy of motherhood! For the longest time, I thought I would never really be able to honestly answer people's question of "Don't you just love being a mom?" I guess I can say yes if they were talking about the "commitment" kinda love. However, I just didn't feel that overwhelming sense of love for one's child that everyone says I'm supposed to. In fact, that question usually brings me to the verge of tears because of the constant hump of overwhelming feeling and exhaustion that I can't seemed to get over. I remembered an old posting On Being a Mamma around this time last year and felt discouraged that it was still hard.

But then the Lord blessed me and gave me the desires of my heart and I FELT it! It was incredible! This past month I have felt nothing but love for Ethan as I watch him grow and play and just be himself. I also felt joy as I take care of him and even the mundane of everyday tasks. I had a renewing sense of motherhood as felt pride in being a mother and realizing that this is my highest calling in life. What a privilege!